Resentment shows you where you're living in the past and not allowing the present to be as it is.
Anger shoes that you are passionate about, where your boundaries are, and what you believe needs to change about the world.
Anxiety shows that you need to wake up, right now, and that you need to be present. that you are stuck in the past and living in the fear of the future.
Those highlighted words above are maybe the feelings I have right now.
Resentment?Slight. It is not about that I am not allowing the present to be as it is. Because what is happening in the present is the effect of what happened in the past. Kumbaga, my present is shape by my past. I had so many experiences in the past that really affects my present. I was hurt. Really hurt. Dili kaha ka masakitan kung mahinumduman nimu tanan nilang gibuhat nimu? Those hurtful words, those hurtful actions? Ingun sila, I should moved on. Yes, I tried, I really tried. In fact I am still on the healing process, BUT, they still they hurt me now. That is why I remembered the past. Nabanhaw ang feelings nga ako unta na gikalimtan. Moving on is a process, so don't tell that I should move on that easily. You were never on my shoes. Don't act like you know me from the tip of my hair to toe. I tried to forgive, but those people, they are always on my side pulling me down. Now, tell me how to move on easily when they are on you side always pulling you down?
Anger? Not so. I am angry in that moment but after hours it will subsides. I won't let anger eat my flesh.
Anxiety? Yes, anxiety. I have it now..I don't know why.. I'm on the process of overcoming this fear. Di lalim, so don't tell me again nga move on, sayon ra kaayo na iistorya but the time naa naka sa sitwasyon nga ingun ani, grabe lisoda. Ingun ana sad ko sauna muingon lang ko sa ako friends ug "move on" pero di man d i lalim..
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